Shawna

Topics: Substance Abuse

"My parents used drugs when I was kid, so I was really against drugs growing up. When I turned 16, I tried alcohol for the first time.  I would get drunk, but I always said ‘no’ to other drugs.  When I was 18, I gave in and said ‘yes’ because I desperately wanted to fit in. This led to the drug that brought me to the lowest point of my life, Oxycontin.  After the first time I tried it, I was addicted for the next 3 years.  At first I thought it was fun, but eventually it made me feel terrible, and not want to live. Soon my life was affected in all areas due to my drug use. I isolated myself from everyone that didn’t use drugs, including my family. 

I ended up getting clean by going into a 28-day inpatient rehab called Hazelden. My family and friends give me a ton of support, but my greatest support system is through Narcotics Anonymous.  I’ve stayed clean and sober through 12 step meetings, doing the steps, helping others, and working with a sponsor.  I have also learned I can practice my own form of spirituality and I now go to a non-denominational church.

The one thing I always remember is that happiness is a choice. I continue to make the choice to stay clean and live a happy life and – because of that – my life is amazing now. Before, I had no joy in my life and nothing to look forward to.  Today, my life is completely the opposite. I wake up every day grateful for my life and to be alive. Getting (and staying) clean was the best thing that’s ever happened to me.  Now, I can pursue my dreams and goals and do something meaningful with my life.  I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world."